Ai's Diary

it’s 3.35am and here i am

still awake and still not feeling sleepy

was suppose to blog about the friday outing and AAR concert after my shower

but diverted to watching a movie

which i cried the whole 2 hours watching it

 

ps: i love you

there’s so much that i feel and want to say after watching it

but now i don’t really know how to express it

i think the movie expresses it all for me

so i won’t write any thing about it

maybe i will after i watch it for the second or third time

having a strong feeling that i will watch it again soon

 

yes…it’s a nice movie which i sometimes relate myself to it

losing someone you loved so much is not easy

letting go is even more harder

and sometimes it feels like he is still here, like he never left too

but truth be told his not here (k…listen to much AAR songs ady…haha…)

 

which is harder?

to lose a person via death or to lose him as he decides to leave?

for me it’s the same no matter what

cause if i loved someone that deeply

i just want to stay by his side forever

yes…forever…to grow old together

even if it means we will have fights and arguments once in  a while

 

when i was with you

i always have the fear of losing you

but not in the way like it is now

i’m afraid that you will suddenly leave me like your brother leave you

that is my greatest fear when i’m with you

but it doesn’t matter anymore does it?

i just hope that you are healthy and happy

 

her husband loved her deeply

and she loved him so much too

even before he die he think of how to make her move on in life

i’m waiting for the day that i will find a love of that kind

 

轰轰烈烈地去爱

对你我是那样

我会继续那样

直到感觉消失的那一天 

 

p/s: i love you…i still love you and still think of you… 

 

it’s 4am now and i think i should go sleep…nitez…