this feeling?
what is this feeling?
i'm confused
i'm scared
what if you are just fooling around?
but i'm falling for you...
and i'm falling fast...
is this feeling of mine will just be temporary?
like had what happened before...
but i feel that it's different this time...
i think of you more than i think of him now
i misses you more than i misses him now
and the time i spend with you are so short yet so warm
and when i'm with you my heart stopped bleeding
but most importantly i can feel that my heart beats again
i feel like seeing you every single day
please don't play with my heart
if you are not going to be serious or treat me well
please stop now
please don't break my heart
12.41am
i'm so confused and scared now
what should i do?
i think i'm falling in love again
or is it just another illusion?
11.21pm
pls msg me...
watch ninja assinsin today
hmm...all the body got cut off and blood spurring is kinda scary
tho i did get used to it after half way through the movie n kinda enjoyed the action
today feels good...
no heart pain...
didn't think of him much
almost didn't think of him
now thinking that i didn't think oh him only
i'm crapping again..lol...
anyway...today i'm happy cause i'm went out
and had mcd ice cream n fries
hehe...i'm happy...
keep saying that i'm happy only
cause i'm happy today
haiya...ai stop la
hehe...
2.09am
sleepy but dun wanna sleep yet
i am happy
gonna go out and do stuff these few days
tried out new things and get some fresh air
it’s time for a change and a new life
life is about taking risk right?
maybe i’ll get something good out of it
i am getting better and i will recover…
i baked cupcakes today…
it’s an improvement for me
i’m going out today
staying in ampang…maybe…
if my sis pick up the phone
wish me luck k my friends
then i’ll tell my dirty little secret
:P
11.50am
slept from 10.30pm yesterday to 2.45pm today
that’s a lot of hours of sleep…i am officially a pig…xD
i was dreaming
i was in another world
there’s something bad going to happen
everyone was running away
i was running away
trap in an elevator
in a shopping mall
bad guys with swords n guns
hide under clothes rack
then there was jungle
and sea monsters
it was complicated
jumping here n there
can’t really tell if i was part of all these or i’m just a by stander
but i can’t wake up
as if that world kept holding me back
or maybe i didn’t want to come back
it’s scares me sometimes when i can’t wake up
3.36pm
feel like hugging everyone tightly
feel like healing zen’s,lixia’s and my bleeding heart
if only i have the power to do so…
thank you ck for listening
thank you yuki for advising
really grateful to have friends like you people
really thank you very very very much yuki
i will take it day by day
everything will be just fine
they believe in me,i believe in me…
i am happy,i can do this!!!
i hope everyone else who has a broken heart will be ok too
10.37pm
nitez
the hot shower was warm and nice
it reminds me of jacob when he said ‘i am 108°’
it’s been so long since anyone hug me nor kiss me
i want to feel the warmth again but could only get it from my shower
was it water dripping down my face or was it tears of pain?
please just put your arms around me and hug me tightly and let me cry,anyone?
7.35pm
just finished my shower
missing an edward
wanting a jacob
for now
i have nothing left to say
i just want to cry out loud
as hard as i could till all the pain is gone
till my heart stop bleeding drops of fresh red blood
why the world have to change?
why people have to change?
why you have to change?
6.42pm
just got back from pavilion
need some time alone to cry
need my own jacob to lend a shoulder for me to cry on
but i still wish for edward
if you know what i mean…
crap!!!
was waken up by calls from a wrong caller person at 7.50am
crap!!!
why this person keep calling back
crap!!!
this means i slept roughly 3 hours ONLY!!!
i still need to go out today leh…
argh!!!crap!!!crap!!!crap!!!
attend a tea party at ‘gardens’ at 1 utama with angie and ezen
it was a clinique tea party organized by clinique for the beautiful shannon
thanks for inviting us shannon…
enjoyed it very much…^^
we learned some make up skills which i still sucks in it after attending so many talks
got some ballons from the tea party too
yeah!!!
was so happy
like small kid…
walked all around 1 utama holding those balloons while people staring at ezen and me
loves to be center of attraction sometimes…haha…
there was one passer by who said "小心飞走掉啊"
so swt…
why la you all treat me like this?
i not that thin la ok…
remember last time got once shane tried to "blow" me
so sarcastic…
we went for movie too…
what movie i can’t tell yet…
it’s our little secret…
brought our balloons into the cinema…
was so scared people curi my balloons when i left it at the back
then when leaving the worker said “your birthday kah?”
then there was this japanese boy who ran up to angie and ask
"are you japanese?"
so suddenly only
but that boy looks so cute!!!
short a bit young a bit
i think around 16-17 years old maybe
but he is sun tanned
not bad at all
then there was one small kid who came up to me and said
"姐姐你的气球哪里拿的?"
at last i gave him one ballon
wuwu~~my ballons…
then there’s one P1 promoter who asked a balloons from me
if he handsome enough i’ll give him
but unfortunately…
haha…
my eyes now loves to look at guys lately
especially those leng zhai cool cool one
haha…
i’m a normal girl
i love to look at guys too
blek…xD
we were stuck at 1 utama
no transport to go home
3 brainless girls plan to go but never plan how to get back home
at last called thian hoe and ask for help
lucky he agreed to give us a ride after much persuasion
all that by just tempting him to eat at BRJ
hmm…BRJ…the mamak at wangsa maju
the place near your house
was so scare to see you there
but at the same time wanted to see you there
passed by your condo and the mc d we used to go
was thinking what i will do when i see you
hehe…i will do crazy things
i want to kiss you as long as i can
then i want to pour teh o ice limao all over
damn it…i really miss you so much
i am happy today
thanks to my friends
and a crazy day out again
tomorrow going out again with lily and shanice
my third time to pavilion this week
but got warning from my sister just now
been coming back late these few days
haiz…i just want to be happy
go out and be crazy makes me happy
and makes me stop emo-ing
sienz…
haiz…
~clinique~
~ezen,me and angie~
~me~
~me~
~love this picture very much,look not bad in it..:)~
~my balloons!!!~
~me and the gals taking picture at topman topshop~
~finally,BRJ the mamak near your place~
there more pictures in angie and ezen phone
hope to get them soon
i mostly take other people pictures only
own pictures very less
*sad*
oh my gosh!!!
4.30am edi and i still haven sleep
tomorrow nedd go out somemore
better go sleep now
nitez



