My Life,My Story

telling my story under the night stars...

this feeling?
what is this feeling?
i'm confused
i'm scared
what if you are just fooling around?
but i'm falling for you...
and i'm falling fast...
is this feeling of mine will just be temporary?
like had what happened before...
but i feel that it's different this time...
i think of you more than i think of him now
i misses you more than i misses him now
and the time i spend with you are so short yet so warm
and when i'm with you my heart stopped bleeding
but most importantly i can feel that my heart beats again
i feel  like seeing you every single day
please don't play with my heart
if you are not going to be serious or treat me well
please stop now
please don't break my heart

12.41am
i'm so confused and scared now
what should i do?

i think i'm falling in love again
or is it just another illusion?

11.21pm
pls msg me...

watch ninja assinsin today
hmm...all the body got cut off and blood spurring is kinda scary
tho i did get used to it after half way through the movie n kinda enjoyed the action
today feels good...
no heart pain...
didn't think of him much
almost didn't think of him
now thinking that i didn't think oh him only
i'm crapping again..lol...
anyway...today i'm happy cause i'm went out
and had mcd ice cream n fries
hehe...i'm happy...
keep saying that i'm happy only
cause i'm happy today
haiya...ai stop la
hehe...

2.09am
sleepy but dun wanna sleep yet

i am happy

gonna go out and do stuff these few days

tried out new things and get some fresh air

it’s time for a change and a new life

life is about taking risk right?

maybe i’ll get something good out of it

 

i am getting better and i will recover…

i baked cupcakes today…

it’s an improvement for me

i’m going out today

staying in ampang…maybe…

if my sis pick up the phone

 

wish me luck k my friends

then i’ll tell my dirty little secret

:P

 

11.50am

slept from 10.30pm yesterday to 2.45pm today

that’s a lot of hours of sleep…i am officially a pig…xD

 

i was dreaming

i was in another world

there’s something bad going to happen

everyone was running away

i was running away

trap in an elevator

in a shopping mall

bad guys with swords n guns

hide under clothes rack

then there was jungle

and sea monsters

it was complicated

jumping here n there

can’t really tell if i was part of all these or i’m just a by stander

but i can’t wake up

as if that world kept holding me back

or maybe i didn’t want to come back

it’s scares me sometimes when i can’t wake up

 

3.36pm

feel like hugging everyone tightly

feel like healing zen’s,lixia’s and my bleeding heart

if only i have the power to do so…

thank you ck for listening

thank you yuki for advising

really grateful to have friends like you people

really thank you very very very much yuki

 

i will take it day by day

everything will be just fine

they believe in me,i believe in me…

i am happy,i can do this!!!

 

i hope everyone else who has a broken heart will be ok too

 

10.37pm

nitez

the hot shower was warm and nice

it reminds me of jacob when he said ‘i am 108°’

it’s been so long since anyone hug me nor kiss me

i want to feel the warmth again but could only get it from my shower

was it water dripping down my face or was it tears of pain?

please just put your arms around me and hug me tightly and let me cry,anyone?

 

7.35pm

just finished my shower

missing an edward

wanting a jacob

for now

i have nothing left to say

i just want to cry out loud

as hard as i could till all the pain is gone

till my heart stop bleeding drops of fresh red blood

 

why the world have to change?

why people have to change?

why you have to change?

 

6.42pm

just got back from pavilion

need some time alone to cry

need my own jacob to lend a shoulder for me to cry on

but i still wish for edward

if you know what i mean…

crap!!!

was waken up by calls from a wrong caller person at 7.50am

crap!!!

why this person keep calling back

crap!!!

this means i slept roughly 3 hours ONLY!!!

i still need to go out today leh…

argh!!!crap!!!crap!!!crap!!!

attend a tea party at ‘gardens’ at 1 utama with angie and ezen

it was a clinique tea party organized by clinique for the beautiful shannon

thanks for inviting us shannon…

enjoyed it very much…^^

we learned some make up skills which i still sucks in it after attending so many talks

got some ballons from the tea party too

yeah!!!

was so happy

like small kid…

 

walked all around 1 utama holding those balloons while people staring at ezen and me

loves to be center of attraction sometimes…haha…

there was one passer by who said "小心飞走掉啊"

so swt…

why la you all treat me like this?

i not that thin la ok…

remember last time got once shane tried to "blow" me

so sarcastic…

 

we went for movie too…

what movie i can’t tell yet…

it’s our little secret…

brought our balloons into the cinema…

was so scared people curi my balloons when i left it at the back

then when leaving the worker said “your birthday kah?”

 

then there was this japanese boy who ran up to angie and ask

"are you japanese?"

so suddenly only

but that boy looks so cute!!!

short a bit young a bit

i think around 16-17 years old maybe

but he is sun tanned

not bad at all

 

then there was one small kid who came up to me and said

"姐姐你的气球哪里拿的?"

at last i gave him one ballon

wuwu~~my ballons…

then there’s one P1 promoter who asked a balloons from me

if he handsome enough i’ll give him

but unfortunately…

haha…

my eyes now loves to look at guys lately

especially those leng zhai cool cool one

haha…

i’m a normal girl

i love to look at guys too

blek…xD

 

we were stuck at 1 utama

no transport to go home

3 brainless girls plan to go but never plan how to get back home

at last called thian hoe and ask for help

lucky he agreed to give us a ride after much persuasion

all that by just tempting him to eat at BRJ

hmm…BRJ…the mamak at wangsa maju

the place near your house

was so scare to see you there

but at the same time wanted to see you there

passed by your condo and the mc d we used to go

was thinking what i will do when i see you

hehe…i will do crazy things

i want to kiss you as long as i can

then i want to pour teh o ice limao all over

damn it…i really miss you so much

 

i am happy today

thanks to my friends

and a crazy day out again

tomorrow going out again with lily and shanice

my third time to pavilion this week

but got warning from my sister just now

been coming back late these few days

haiz…i just want to be happy

go out and be crazy makes me happy

and makes me stop emo-ing

sienz…

haiz…

 

teaparty1

~clinique~

 

teaparty2

~ezen,me and angie~

 

teaparty3

~me~

 

teaparty4 ~my darling ezen and me~

 

teaparty5 

teaparty6

~me~

~love this picture very much,look not bad in it..:)~

 

ballons1

~my balloons!!!~

 

ballons2

~me and the gals taking picture at topman topshop~

 

ballons3 ballons4 ballons5 ballons6

ballons7 ballons8me

brj~finally,BRJ the mamak near your place~

 

there more pictures in angie and ezen phone

hope to get them soon

i mostly take other people pictures only

own pictures very less

*sad*

 

oh my gosh!!!

4.30am edi and i still haven sleep

tomorrow nedd go out somemore

better go sleep now

nitez

爱情从缘分开始

却靠努力和坚持来维持

勇敢去爱

勇敢去闯

勇敢地去受伤吧...

活着就要爱得无悔...

我不想后悔也没后悔...

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想念是会呼吸的痛...

沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

怎么了 你累了 说好的幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

那些日子你会不会不舍得
思念就像关不紧的们
空气里有幸福的灰尘
否则为何闭上眼睛的时候
又全都想起了

最爱你的人还是你自己
最疼你的人还是你自己
要永远记得。。。

爱情没有后悔
爱情只有遗憾

没结果的故事才最美
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