Ai's Diary

hsiang surprise me again today.
although he says it's just a surprise
and he don't want to tell me what it is
i guessed correctly within 3 tries
damn i'm so good at guessing xD

hsiang made ICE CREAM for me!!!
so unbelievable.hsiang made ice cream
i ate it at his house with his mom and brother wei wei
we added in freshly harvested mulberry from aunty's garden and watermelon
it was HEAVEN!!better than Mc Donald's ice cream
and of course because it is specially made by hsiang for me

thank you dear for the great surprise
*hugs* =)

and finished consumer behavior and advertising test today
hope i did ok.two more papers to go and i'm free to a pack holiday
going to work this weekend then off to a 5 day trip to singapore
come back work again on weekend then rest for a day or two
after that go back tampin for a few days then college reopens
damn i feel so busy but love it cause my life if rich and meaningful

awake since 3am.going to sleep now.thanks again dear for everything.
shall bake something nice for you soon.*hugs* <3 love

that’s it

i can’t take it anymore

let’s bake

 

baked cupcakes with ice cream dear today =)

my cute blue polka dots cupcakes cup =)

we baked so many cupcakes!!

   butter cream and colorful decorations =)

decorated by ice cream dear

the one i love the most

=)

ice cream dear tried to make a heart shape for me

awhh…so sweet of you

thank your dear

 

baking with dear was fun and sweet

but now back to studying time

wish me luck everyone

=)

1. dream that i couldn't answer a single question of anthro finals.
2. dream that someone tried to kill my loved ones and succeeded.
3. freak out that finals starts tomorrow.but more worried about tuesday.haven read a single thing for CB.
4. wants to bake so badly but just kept thinking that FINALS IS HERE!!CANNOT BAKE!!

damn i so stress n freak out now.feel like jumping off from inti's 11th floor.

Yesterday was a great day.

Ice cream dear brought me all the way to IKEA just to eat MEATBALLS!!!

Studied there a little and then window shopping a little.

I LOVE walking around in IKEA and dream of my own home with NICE KITCHEN.XD

Then we went back college and continue studying till around six before going back for dinner.

Was productive enough to finish almost one chapter of advertising

I’m so dead,so many subjects so many chapters and finals is next week.die lor…

After dinner we went out again for PING PONG!!

We went to vig’s apartment but the table was occupied.=(

Apa boleh buat…so we went all the way to 3K complex.

paid ten bucks then played for an hour lor.

Ice cream dear’s friend chicheongfan came along too.

And he is good in ping pong,well at least better than both of us.

It was nice to play after i stop playing it for a long time edi,

But i suck at it,for now at least.

Shall practice more when i have the time.hehe…

After that we went to Republic for a drink

CRANBERRY VODKA!!! my craving was satisfied in day thanks to ice cream dear

Thank you so much dear.

Bought burger on the way back..but… but…

I k.o. till forgot to take my hand phone and my burger. =(

Damn.one small glass of cranberry vodka also i die.damn malu wei.

And i felt freezing cold the whole night though the weather was so hot.

Overall it was a productive day yesterday.=)

thanks to my ice cream dear.love you.*hugs*

It was raining this morning and for the first time in so many weeks i woke up to find my blanket and cuddle myself.

Four more days to finals exam and i still haven study much,only two chapters or maybe one and a half chapter of anthropology.

I am freaking out and at the same time giving up on my studies.

I am seriously craving for good food,which make it even harder to study.

I get a cold stone heart as reflex when i get hurt and i'm good at it.

I miss my ice cream dear and i miss being happy.

I'm going to Singapore alone and suddenly i feel lost.

I feel like baking but have no idea what to bake.

I need to go work soon cause i want to earn more pocket money.

I am hungry now and wasting my time instead of studying.

I feel like eating scones and drinking hot tea on a cold morning like this somewhere under a tree at a english house at Fraser Hill which i hope is still there since that stupid Malaysian government is demolishing many of the heritage building that.

Going to eat swiss roll now instead.

i feel down.
i feel like baking.
what to bake?

you’re lucky to have parents like these

you’re lucky to have good sister like them

you’re lucky to have friends like them

you’re lucky to have him

 

It’s always about i’m lucky to have someone else but never once in my life i hear someone telling me that those people are lucky for having me. I guess i’m worthless to them huh? Or maybe i am. It breaks my heart to hear all those words. I’m forever not good enough maybe for you people. Sometimes I feel like being very very selfish, do whatever i like without caring for them anymore. Abandon my studies and go travel the world, stop helping friends which in a way i already did and for him, maybe i should learn from James's  girlfriend. I never said that he was not good enough for me, and for people to compare him with their partner and can’t see what they really have is even worse. if yours is not good enough then tell him.and you people can only see what he has done for me,what about the stuff that i have done for him?i’m tired today.tired and disappointed.i guess I'll always be the one that is not good enough. guess lucky is not that lucky after all.

I’m finally back in Subang. Spending 5 peaceful days in Tampin somehow makes me feel disgust of the life i’m having in the city. Yes I have great eating places, shopping malls, movie theaters, nightclubs,bars etc to go to just within a 20 minutes drive from my Subang home. Bandar Sunway is in fact a paradise. All the entertainment is seductive and i love it, but after coming back from a peaceful place in which did not have all these, i feel this place is so lifeless. All i see here is people, fake people, materialistic people, all praying on others waiting the right time to jump and enjoy the feast. Everyone is putting on a show, sad people look happy, happy people look sad, innocent people look evil, evil people look so innocent, and the worst part is  i’m part of those people, putting on a masquerade afraid of being myself,protecting myself against everyone. My hometown is not exactly the prefect place to be at, but at least it gave me inner peace.

 

It used to be very hard for me to go back to Tampin. I love my hometown a lot. But due to some reasons i just hate going back there, really hate it. However, it’s not a horrible place to go back to anymore, at least not as horrible as it used to be few months back. I can’t avoid the people living there nor the things they say, either intentionally or unintentionally. I know that it would not be easy but i have to face it. Seeing some good old friends was nice, when they don’t mention some sensitive issues.

 

ice cream dear went back with me to Tampin to meet mommy and daddy. Chieh Yen didn’t think it was a good idea but i carried on with it. Then Chieh Hoon was it Tampin which gave me the shock of my life. Maybe it was just destined for ice cream dear to meet all of them once. It went well i think. Mommy and daddy was like usual, they don’t interrupt with my life, at least in this matter. As for Chieh Hoon, she did questioned me a little when mommy and daddy was not around, but she didn’t said much. I think daddy told her not to. But i know she’s just worried for me, all my family members are. And i think ice cream did try really hard to give his best. I can see it and I’m happy for that and i hope my parents are happy with him too.

 

Mommy and daddy gave ice cream dear a one day trip to Malacca since that he has never visited the historical city. We went to some old village, walk by the riverside in the middle of the freaking hot sun, went to Bunga Raya street to eat ABC at Tan Chong which is one of the oldest ice cream shop in Malacca which existed since mommy and daddy were just kids, went to Tan Kim Hock to get dodol, went to St. Paul Hill to visit the fortress, stop by at the Stadhuys, visited Guan Yin Ting which is the oldest temple, visited Jonker Street and shop till night and finally end our day with delicious satay celup at Mc.Queck which is better than the Ong Kim Yee one, only Malacca people would now about it (shh……). It was a great day with my family and ice cream dear. But there’s so much more that i want to show him. I want to show him the Klebang seaside, i want to show him my grandmother’s house in Pokok Manga which is not there anymore, Dataran Pahlawan, Mahkota Parade, Portuguese Settlement, go eat one delicious rojak which not many people know about it, try the chicken rice ball and so much more. Shall make it happen. I hope i can happen.

 

borrowed mommy’s yellow hat and noticed that it match my blouse after hsiang told me.

i look like Japanese a tourist. xD

the person who always and still love the ruin my ss pictures.HSIANG!!!

the Malacca club house which is now a museum

the car tunku abdul rahamn once sat in.

moonlove@milk made hsiang take tourist picture.muahaha

Hsiang refuse to pose like tourist so i candid him which is sort of a failure.=(

we climb all the way up and enjoy the ruin, light breeze and majestic view of the Malacca straits. love it.

Hsiang’s second tourist pose in front of the fountain of memorial for Queen Victoria.

one little two little three little people,four little five little six little staircase.xD

the awful ABC we had at one of the shops at Jonker Street.

they used coconut milk from a box instead of fresh ones.

and still the queue was so long.

this Singaporean and KL people really don’t know what real ABC is.

food that doesn’t taste good as it looks.

it didn’t look that nice either but thanks to my good photography skills it did.xD 

How tourist look like when he is tired and hot and dirty and thirsty.  

how i look like when i’m dead tired and feel damn hot and sticky and dirty with no mood to be playful.

made hsiang do tourist pose again at the temple. 

Hsiang candid me at the temple.but it looks nice.love this pic.

we syiok sendiri proplr taking pictures while resting.tsk tsk tsk… 

the blue blue sky that day.=)

satay celup for dinner at McQuek’s

Hsiang enjoying his satay celup.

nom…nom…nom…

my watermelon juice to kill the spiciness

roti for dipping into the rich spicy sweet peanut sauce.

*thumbs up*

my hsiang secretly trying on my hat when i was in the toilet.

i caught ya!!now pose for me!!MUAHAHA!!!

you look so cute dear,just like a baby.=)

 

The presence of ice cream dear in Tampin dear with me by my side all the time reminds me how much i sayang  my hometown and the food here. He made me feel differently about what used to be just heartache and pain. Maybe he has magic and put a spell on me.haha… We watched drama together, study together, played sims and devil may cry 4 together, eat together but not bath or sleep together of course.haha…showed ice cream dear many of my stuff but haven show him my big book of sticker collection and my baby pictures, shall save it for next time. Ice cream dear teman me go to town on Monday. We meet up with my honey then went to the bank,spectacles shop,mini market,tuition center and tampin shopping together. I bought lots of stuff and luckily ice cream dear was there to control me. Spend around an hour catching up with tuition aunty and another hour browsing through Tampin Shopping and another hour waiting for aunty to come back from don’t know where. But same like Malacca, there’s so much more that i still want to share and show him. Tampin Hill, our taman rekreasi, pasar malam, stadium, Longkang Mee, the midnight satay, Gadek hot springs, A’famosa, Gunung Datuk, the rail way station, my secondary school etc.

me caught red handed watching lydia when i suppose to be studying

made hsiang did lala post.muahaha!!!

the evening view when we went for an evening walk around my house.

it is so beautiful isn’t it?so peaceful so natural.

hsiang the explorer.xD

me got caught playing sims this time.this proves that Hsiang is constantly stalking me.:P

which i was actually playing hsiang in sims.xD

no lunch no sleep no shower for you.

muahaha!!!

Hsiang taking picture of us when i trying to sneeze

*shakes head*

silly ice cream

ss people taking picture again while waiting for tuition aunty to come back.xD

the death note shirt we bough at Jonker Walk

Hsiang bought the same size like me

one too small one too big

hiaz…

the one nicer is my drawing.xD

we are happy together...*sings*

 

5 days of peace and quiet has come to an end though. Need to catch up with my studies which i have given up very much this semester. All my subjects are just not my cup of tea. Maybe there’s one or two that i like due to the lecturer but the rest, i think the lecturer made me hate it even more. I have problem facing things that i don’t like. But sometimes i just don’t have the choice.If i do i will make the choice.I think…

it’s so HOT HOT HOT that i’m melting!!! but that doesn’t stop me from BAKING!!

today i had my consumer behavior test which carries 15% out of the whole course marks.that is A LOT of marks and i screwed it as usual.

fell asleep and drooled on my test paper.i bet the lecturer will be wondering what water mark is that on my paper.

anyway it’s over and i can’t do anything about it.so i baked something that really worth drooling for. :D

 

Ingredients

4 eggs,separated

1 cup caster sugar

1/3 cup melted butter

1 tbsp finely grated orange rind

1/4 cup cold water

1 1/2 cup self raising flour

1/2 tsp cream of tartar

2 tbsp fresh orange juice

 

Methods

Mixture 1:

egg yolks + 1/2 of the sugar (beat till pale & thick)

+

melted butter+ orange rind + cold water (till combined)

+

flour

 

Mixture 2:

egg whites + cream of tartar (beat till soft peaks appear)

+

remaining sugar (beat till dissolved)

 

fold Mixture 2 into  Mixture 1 in 2 batches

pour into pan and bake for 50 minutes at 150 degree Celsius

 

and my ♥ORANGE CHIFFON CAKE♥ is done

=)

 

p/s: i used less sugar cause i don’t want it to be so sweet and added chocolate chips to the top.but all that’s optional.

ice cream dear surprised me with LOTUS ROOT SOUP yesterday

it was home cooked.yummy yummy YUMMY!!!

to drink warm soup on a rainy days feels so emmm…GOOD

thank you hsiang for rasuah-ing me with food again. :P

 

at night we wanted to go Carrefour but something unexpected happened

chieh yen said:"later ask your friend to come in a while,i want to talk to him."

and i said "okay" but was "shit shit shit shit…" all the way inside

but it turn out well…hsiang did well i think

and the way chieh yen says it,it’s serious but funny in a way

then mommy called and found out that one of my classmate married last month

that was shocking news…WOW

 

after that we went to Carrefour to get my supplies

then to the mamak to study as usual

found out that ice cream dear can’t differentiate between toast bread and french toast

it’s okay dear…shall show you next time okie?

even better, i’ll make french toast for you next time k dear?

my turn to rasuah you with food.muahaha!!!  

 

slipped, fell and knocked my head on the toilet bowl when i wanted to brush teeth

it was damn damn damn painful.though i was going to faint that very moment

lucky i didn’t and pull myself up and went to the bed immediately and called ice cream dear

was freakin scare that time.

got better after a while so i quickly got up, brush my teeth and sleep

can’t sleep without brushing my teeth…i have hygiene issues.xD

 

i think i get hurt once every month

in february i hurt my left foot

in march i burned a hole at my left thigh

and now in april i knocked my head

crap la…

 

today woke up at 11am

plan of making orange cake canceled :(

went to class as usual then went to subang parade with chieh yen

had lunch at "the baker" a norway sandwich store

but i still think that leroy’s sandwich is the best.LOL

went to mph and saw this papers they sell for making cards

OMG!!!if only i’m rich and creative…

 

came back made jelly together with chieh yen

and googled to see what jelly is made off

surprisingly it’s made of animal’s intestines and bones

that makes me think twice the next time i’m having jelly

xD.don’t believe me? click this link

 

 

 

 

4.42pm

shall nap a while,go jogging then study at night

"it’s the small things in life that makes it have a purpose" quoted from the cup at the baker