Ai's Diary

又来了
迷失在那空间
漂浮在那时空

回来了
发现时间越过了
我又再次错过了

就这样
让我回去好吗
让我待在那儿

那世界
我一手创造的
美丽新生活呐

心不在
留着我在这儿
也一样是白费

放走我
让我解脱好吗
让我开心地笑

昨晚我梦到他回来了,向我伸出手. 
穿着件属于他的褐色皮革外套, 拒绝了.


今早另一个他回来了,出现在我面前.
拥抱了, 讯息了. 就这样罢了,没什么了.


梦与现实生活也会有相似的地方吧?
今天心情很纳闷.很寂寞.
朋友.又开始不信任了.
逃跑的欲望又来了.

i miss my old blog...

I've been struggling over one decision for a very long long long time.

It's hard to leave everything I wrote behind, with all those pictures and memories. Which I do read back at times.

I tried opening new ones but kept feeling that it's not right. The font is not right. The theme is not right. The blog name is not right. Bla bla bla...and it goes on.

But I do start to like one that I started using a while ago though I didn't update much there.

I like the title. I like the simple layout. I like the easy posting through mobile. I like many of it's feature.

Maybe it is time to change.

Yes! It is time to change!

Do e-mail me at moonlove_koh@yahoo.com if you want to know. ;)
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Last day of the month already. That's fast. Felt like the world just walk pass me.

Sister lock kiki out her bedroom last night. I decided to let mine open. That lonely phobia cat came to my room and choose the worse possible place to be in-my laundry basket. And actually enjoyed sitting in there!

Will be helping sister out at an art market in the morning. Baked some muffins cause according to her the table is TOO BIG and she has TOO LESS products to sell. Oh well...since I did not bake for a long time, might as well just try to enjoy it.

Coursework marks are out. I am pretty satisfied with my marks. Hooray! I did okay. End of April means May is coming. That means finals are really close. I am making really slow progress on the studying part. Just hope I will be able to male it.

Watched a video today. A video that most couples or people who had been in relationships could relate to. It is true in a way the things they show in the video. Shall post it up on the next post. =)

12.45am
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Turtles can live for hundreds of years and swim for thousands of miles.

Mr. and Mrs Turtle in my house just sits there in one corner quietly with each other.

I wonder if turtles get tired of life.

Love that lasts a long time? Turtle love!

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The only sound I could hear were the birds chipping outside my window, my old stand fan and occasionally an airplane that flew across the sky.

I am at peace. Just lying on my bed, with the sunlight bursting in through my window.

My head is empty. Did not think of studies, did not think of problems. I could only just feel and enjoy this moment.

It felt good. To just rest. At ease.


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The plan was simple. To fall in love, be in a relationship, graduate from college, get a job, settle down in a small house, get a pet dog and cat, maybe open a cafe later on and just spend the rest of my life on the slow path. But it seems so impossible now. To fall in love is easy, to be in a relationship is hard. What more if the relationship would have to last a life time. The problem of  7 years itch, that bugs me. Time for a backup plan or do the whole thing again?

 

What’s life about? To live and die and share everything in between with family, friends and loved ones. I have great friends and awesome families that stood by me all the time, who knows what I'm worth. The only part missing is that one guy that will have that determination and spirit to fight for special something. Or maybe I’m just not worth that special something yet.

 

Guys will be guys. Every relationship will stumble upon the same problem at one point. To solve it or to just walk away are the only 2 available options. Some will walk away and find out what’s it really worth later on, some will just move on and never look back. Life is pathetic at times. It create a illusion that everything will be wonderful then it will torn it down one by one to the core, and there you are standing in the middle feeling naked as the whole world stares at you.

 

Love grows is true and false at the same time. For some it does grows, for others it’s like a natural resource that if used over time will be depleted one day. In a relationship, both people may grow together, or one of them may be stagnant or may be dying. When they don’t grow together, and even worse when one grows and the other just fade away, the relationship will just go down the drain.

 

When you say you love someone, do you really mean it? When you love someone, how far would you go? When you love someone, how much pain are you willing to endure? A friend to me, know what you WANT, then you’ll know what to do. If only it is that simple.

 

To mend a broken heart is a pain in the ass. I wanted a remote like the one in the movie “CLICK” where i can just fast forward my part of my life that i just don’t want to suffer through. But then again, if it goes into auto pilot each time i have the same problem, i would miss out on the wonderful things such as friends and family that will be there for me. Then think again, what matters most to you like what matters to the guy in the movie? I know it. For the second time i know it. But then again, it’s not that simple.

 

To let go is the best choice cause if it comes back to me one day, then it is a true come back. I’ve said ‘lets try again’ for so many times. Maybe i should just stop and see will it be the other way round this time. But not to put my hopes up a friend said to me.

 

It’s not easy to see something you’ve spend so much time and effort to just slip away. to slip away just like that.

Toilets are the best place to hide in, especially public ones.
You'll have a place to sit with privacy.
There's tissue right beside when u need it.
And in any case u cried till feel like vomiting, u can just sit up, turn around, life the cover up and throw up.
Choose a clean, quality toilet though. I highly recommend the ones in subang parade.
XD

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I skip work today. I can't do it. Don't want to give them more trouble.
Just sat there on the bench looking at the people pass by. Not really paying any attention though.
Manager passed by and sat beside me. Asked me why I didn't go home. Asked me to go out with friends. But never asked me what happen. Eyes were swollen and at the verge of crying. He said I no face can cry in public one. Haha. Since when I care?
A worker came too. Told me not to worry about work. Thank you guys.

And so it is the end. It is really the end? Yeah I think so. His one last request was for us to stick to this final decision and move on with life. It's so easy to just say it. It's so easy for others to just move on. To forget him asap he says, to hold on will just make it worse. Will I be forgotten asap as well? That's so sad.

Trying to kill my 4 hours in subang parade. Sitting at different places including hiding in the toilet when I can't take it. Head hurts vision blurry from crying too much. But if it eases the heart a little then so be it.

Can't believe that I have to mend yet another broken heart. After all this while of thinking that things really could be different.
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It struck me hard
It wake me up from my dreams
It made me realize my foolish hopes

One moment of clarity
To see and realize what that can never happen

12.30pm

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people change
some brought better life, some brought worst and some brought disappointment
life goes on, learn to be strong and stand on our own feet
we are independent individual, we don't need anyone to survive
for those who hurted you, all you have to do just turn around and walk away with your biggest smile and never look back

-Lim Stephanie

 

爱情常常 从希望开始，但也由绝望结束.

 

不管你的条件有多差 总会有个人在爱你。不管你的条件有多好 也总有个人不爱你——张爱玲

 

Love is like a temperature.to have a comfortable temperature,it must not be too hot or cold.if its too hot,you will die.if its too cold,you'll die.so,love your lover at an acceptable level

 

i am wondering, if it was all worth it, all the things that i did and let go to prove something.

i am wondering, if it was all worth it, all those times of crying in the shower alone.

i am wondering, if it was all worth it, all those those of crying off to sleep.

i am wondering, if it was all worth it, to swallow the pain and continue.

 

the only thing that is not changing is change itself.

 

change is inevitable

the question is we change for the better or for worse?

the question is we change for someone else or ourselves?

the question is we change for the good of something or just to protect our own interest?

 

i tried so hard to accept so many things.

i tried so hard to change for things to work.

now i feel it’s not worth it.

 

the more i try to be better

the more i try to accept things

the more i get hurt

i feel so wounded i can’t talk anymore

 

but i am not strong enough.

not strong enough and cold enough to just turn around and walk away with a big smile

i wish i can do that. i wish i can. i wish i can.

 

but that’s not me.

though i can change.

change is up to me. i can change.

why should i care when other just hurt me

cause that’s not me.

 

i am struggling.

to be who i am

or to change to be more selfish, ignorant, and cold

 

i am struggling.

who i want to be?

 

9.40pm

The last two days were working days in Jusco IOI Puchong. It was a tough crowd to persuade. People were not very friendly and polite. I still prefer working in Subang Carrefour. Sales tend to be better there and people are more sociable. On a bright side, I did made some new friends. Though it will still be like a two days friends type of thing. Still, better than nothing right?

I love the sun. I love going out for evening walks. Working indoors with artificial light and air-conditioning makes me miss the warmth of sun very much. I would go out during my break time and walk under sun sometimes. Unfortunately it rained!!! It was so cold and gloomy. =(

Now it's raining as well. Internet connection is very shitty. I haven started studying for finals. I haven type out history tips for angie. Maybe I nap first la. At least I did all the house chores.

5.15pm
I need jobs, jobs that pay well. Please tell me if you know any ya.

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Yesterday was the last day of classes for this semester. But, I don't really feel the relieve or excitement. It's like any other normal day to me. It's so weird. Why am I not feeling happy?

Sister brought me to USJ19 Mall for lunch today. We had steamboat at 100 celcius. We were the only customer, so we were like the VIPs? LOL. It was nice. Food was okay, environment was okay, price was okay as well. It was worth it la I might say. Shall drag the boyfriend there when he comes back. Oh and we went to this boutique that sells korean clothes. It was soooooo nice! I wish I have money to buy those pretty clothes.

The rest of the day was spent trying to build a webstore for my sister. Tried to put my skills learned in E-commerce class to use. But gosh it is hard. I manage to complete say 40% of it today. But the most important parts which is the store is running perfectly. I just need to add more products, improve on the homepage, add in contacts, terms and conditions etc. OMG that's so many!!! Shall take my time to do it la. In the mean time, please support us!!! www.welovearts.weebly.com

11.50pm
Am dead tired
Shall sleep early today cause tomorrow got work. Good night!


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Stupid and clumsy me hit my tiny toe at the edge of the door twice on monday. One a very big, the other was not that hard but hurts. It got swollen a bit and turned a little blue the next day. Then the blue area spread. Now, not only the toe is blue. The area around the feet is also blue. And yes it hurts. Oil and massage don't really seem to work. I need to stand long hours this weekend. Please heal fast.

1.40am
Watched harry potter and half blood prince. Such a boring movie.

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Yesterday in History class, my group was announced as the best group for the magazine assignment. Miss Rozita gave us a box of chocolate. I shared it with groupmates and some of the classmates that haven left the class.

I am not a very vocal person. Don't really know how to react in situation like this, don't really know how to express my gratitude either. But I want to say thank you to my group members and classmates that gave us good marks in the peer evaluation. It is their evaluation that made it all possible. Once again I am very thank you to all of you guys AND girls.

The magazine project was very interesting and fun though a little bit stressful. But I have learn many things along the way. After having a chance to look at the works of other group, I feel that actually my magazine was just normal. Their's was filled with creative cartoon strips, pictures, backgrounds, and boxes that review stuff type of thing. I feel that the only thing that sets us apart is that I manage to do borderless printing. My point is, if everyone is able to do the borderless printing, I think my group would not have won. So really, thank you so much. And honestly, everyone did a great job. I had fun and learned new skills. I hope others did as well.

5.15pm
It is raining cats and dogs in subang!

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Persuasive Speech. It is finally over! I won't say that I did good, but I did get compliments from miss lim, which is very rare because I normally get negative comments from her. Kinda not used to it when she says something nice. LOL. All and all, I am satisfied that my work paid off. All those practicing till my mouth and jaws felt cramp was worth it. I even practice while taking my evening walk k. I am just thankful now.= )

Thus, I rewarded by myself by opening that packet of chips I bought 2 weeks ago. It taste like heaven! I can't even remember that last time I had potato chips. Enjoyed it with a cup of cold soya bean milk while watching an episode of The Good Wife. Only ONE episode! My reward for hard work is chips. Lol wth right? I bet so many people out there eat chips almost everyday. But I am satisfied. I don't need chips often. I AM A HEALTHY PERSON, besides the fact that I don't really eat much.lol.

Then had an evening walk again. Its the last week of the semester. Things are slowing down. I have time now to take a stroll on evenings enjoying the hot sun and played with water while watering the plants later on. Ahhhh...this is the kind of life I want. If only I can have more of this.

Tomorrow is e-commerce group assignment due and presentation as well. One last one then it is finals. Gotta start studying if I want to get good grades for some subjects and pass for others such as IM. Semester finally coming to an end. I can proudly shout "I SURVIVE ANOTHER SEMESTER!!!".

8.45pm
Today I am happy.
I made myself happy.
=)
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因为今晚我不想跟他们睡。因为我不想一睁开看到的就是他们。

我：甘愿痛甘愿哭的也不想放的感觉。就好象希望奇迹会出现.
她：那就继续痛到你觉得受不了再离开.这是我会做的事.可是我告诉你,在你离开的时候,你已经遍体鳞伤了.
我：嗯。所有事情都有代价的。那就是我必须付出的代价。
她：恩.

我要记着这段对话。给自己的提醒。

11pm
还没温习。没心。晚安。

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我很不开心！
带我远走高飞吧...
我想回家。
我想喝醉。
我想麻木。
我想痛哭。
我想开心。
我想快乐。
我想幸福。
我想消失。
我想要钱。
我想飞翔。
我想吹海风。
我想笑这哭。
我想哭着笑。
我想向大海呐喊。
我想不说话。
我想看不见。
我想听不见。
我想感受不到。
我想没有自觉。
我想想什么就做什么。
我想要什么就买什么。
我想要车子。
我想世界末日快点来。
我想可以不用顾虑那么多。
我想不介意那么多。
我想不爱那么多。
我想要快乐。
我想别人弄我伤心。
我想我快乐是因为别人让我笑。
我不想我笑着时别人弄我哭。
我想流浪。
我想一个人旅行。
我想去巴黎谈个短暂却一生难忘的爱情。
I want to be treated right and be happy.
我想静静不说话。
我想静静看着所有事情。
我想还完我的债，照顾好父母，然后离去。
好累。好累。
没希望没奢望没梦想的人最恐怖。
我对人没有了同情感。
我只关心值得我关心的人。
其余的就算在我面前死着我都不会帮，因为不值得。
我想什么都不理了。
我不理了。我什么都不理了。
我想没了心。我想没有感觉。我不想哭不想笑。只想要没有感情没有情绪。那样多好。
够了吧。累了。把自己关起来吧。别再出来了。自己知道出来会有什么后果。乖乖呆在里面别出来了。心，听话哦。都是为了你好的。
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Friday was dramatic. The day filled with events. Good ones and bad ones. I am just glad everyone and everything turned out fine.

Saturday was a blurry day. Can't remember what happened. It's like I'm there but I'm not there. If you know what I mean.

Sunday is filled with to-do-list. Got rid a few items and felt better. Went for an extra long sunday evening walk with the doggie. The walk to you drop type. I still have IM to study and speech that need to be perfected.

If I want to be happy, I have to make myself happy. If people make me sad, just shake it away and ignore them. I feel happy because I made myself happy, I feel sad cause other make me sad.

If only things could be better.

8.15pm

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When I feel tired and has fallen sick, trying to find a shoulder to lean on, I find that the most reliable and most comfortable shoulder is my pillow. Sometimes I want to laugh and cry at the same time. Laugh at my foolishness, cry at my pain.

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Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, save it for a rainy day~

60% done for persuasive speech but I am too tired too continue. Rest first. Sleep first. Dream first.

We are talking again. Though we are still sorting some things out and ironing out others. We should really go through this to make a break through. I hope we can settle things out. I am waiting for the answer.

10.34pm
Good night
I hope I won't have bad dreams tonight


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I finally can trust someone, with no worries, even when that person would go far far away for some time. I didn't cry because I wasn't afraid, because I know it would be alright.
When manager asked me today am I sure my boyfriend overseas won't cheat on me and lie to me, I gave him a very certain answer that I believed it won't happen. Maybe that manager has bad experience as well.

I overcome my problem of trust. But ironically there's another problem and things came crumbling down.

Such an irony. Truly. Really.

I think when people stop trying, all the good things will cease to happen.

Watched Megamind again with sister yesterday. Moral of the story? Never stop trying. Can I do it? What if I am tired?

Song of the day
杨丞琳－带我走

11.30pm

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在facebook看了一篇文章, 觉得蛮有意思的, 就借了在此分享。

 

没有人会把你当全世界

by 愛、文章 on Friday, April 8, 2011 at 8:20pm

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

满满的眼泪苦苦的 鼻子酸酸的  像喝了一大口的雪碧一样 刺的眼睛和鼻子 泛红发酸

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

别人指着你的痛处哈哈大笑 你却只能傻傻地笑着 不然别人会说你开不起玩笑的 所以你笑弯了腰 连眼泪都笑了出来

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

心情不好的时候不想说话 别人却不屑地说你装什么大牌   然后拂袖而走 但是别人心情不好的时候却容不下你安慰的只言片语

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

被人狼狈地指责一通后 有人相信你 却是陌生人   而你最亲近的人 却在这一刻皱着眉头问你有没有这回事

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

浑身发抖的想冲上去和他们撕打 想辩解 想大声的哭出来 说 不是这样不是这样

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

铺天盖地而来的委屈冲垮了你所有的理智   你多想什么都不管 什么都不用顾忌

却在心里疯狂而表面冷静的想着所有的情节之后

却还是整理了一下自己仪容仪表 再潇洒的重复昨天过的生活

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

想洒脱的离开 洒脱的笑 洒脱放手说不爱 结果走人之后抱头痛哭  抽抽搭搭的哭的混身止不住的颤抖

愤愤的想诅咒所有的人 所有让你难过痛苦受伤的人

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

你想痛恨他们一辈子   可是最后还是妥协了 用最累 最虚伪 却也最和平的微笑去迎接所有打击你的人和事

 

你肯定有过这样的时候

你做了很多迎战准备 却最后还是逃跑了

因为你怕失去所有的一切

哪怕这一切都是令你心碎的东西 可你还是不想失去

你固执并且懦弱的用微笑去诠释所有的困难不过笑笑而置之

直到你倒下   你都没能将你的小宇宙爆发

 

我想说的是  对自己好一点 因为没人会把你当全世界。

 

 

我想我应该多疼下自己了。去买想买的，吃想吃的。最近为了那个无畏的旅程而约束自己，为的是要存多些资金。可是对方又怎样呢？我应该对自己好一点，因为他不会把我当是全世界，也许曾经是， 可是现在不是了。我不该再为别人想了，对自己没好处， 只让自己更难过，让自己受苦。不值得的。别人不会珍惜。要对自己好一点。明天买双鞋吧。美美的鞋。

 

10.10pm

It's easy to fall back into bad habits when I am week.
The temptation is there. I am sorry cousin.
让我放纵一次吧。honey say I control myself too much.

I hold on strongly to the quote I created.
the more I walk through life
the more I know and see love
the more I am in a relationship
the more I believe in it.

爱情从缘分开始，却靠努力和坚持来维持。

可是只有一个人在努力的话， 在怎么努力也没用。
Tangan bertepuk sebelah sahaja tidak akan berbunyi.

1.41am
Thank you to friends that kept me company tonight. Appreciate it very much.


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I am in Tampin!!! Yay!!! It feels really good to be back home. To be at a place where life is so much simpler and happier. There's no internet connection here, the only thing that connects me to the www is my bb. Thus, laptop was never turned on. XD

The moment I reach home I head straight for my bed, skipping lunch. I had the best sleep ever since...since...since...I can't even remember lol. Parents didn't even wake me up. Hehehe... When I finally woke up 5.5 hours later, the best meal ever awaits me. Mom cooked sambal ikan tumis. Although I don't consume spicy food often, I can't resists my mom's sambal ikan tumis. It is the best ever! For a person that dislike fish like me, yet I still enjoy a fish with that much bone, it is really that awesome!

In the evening, I enjoyed a nice short evening walk with mommy to the indian shop. It is just simple and warm. <3 After second round of sambal ikan tumis for dinner. I am going to bed early. Hehehe.

10.15pm
Good night

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I can't have it all. When I want something I need to sacrifice something.

I spent so much time on the history magazine these few days. Figuring out how to print without border, how to print on A3 paper, and which orientation to use and the sequence. Everything is so important to me. I wanted it to turn out great. It did, and I am proud of myself. Proud that I put in the effort, proud that I didn't gave up, proud that I use my creativity to solve the problems I faced. I did all these because I know I can do it. I have the skills and patient and most importantly the heart. =) What people see is just a magazine, but really, it is not easy. For me it is something that I accomplished, new things that I learned along the way. It was pure hard work. And I believe hard work do pay off, one way or another.

Thus to reward myself, here I am in Subang Parade Manhattan fish market enjoying a hot cup of earl grey tea and the rm6.99 fish and chips. I am working later so shall take this as my tea break.

Although I feel like my body is going to break down from the lack of sleep and proper meals, I am happy today. Feeling very accomplished. Tomorrow I will head back to hometown. I have not been back for so long. Shall work on my persuasive speech and history presentation when I am there.

Till then.ttly. =)

4.50pm
With love from ai

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Just another picture.

Sakae Sushi second most powerful person is in store today. I can feel the pressure already. Hope I don't do anything wrong. Hahaha...

Studying/trying to study e-commerce. Not muct time left. Need to add more oil.

4.40pm

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My result for history midterm with a heavy weight of 25% turned out to be A-okay. 89/100 or 22.25% out of 25%. It is good enough. =)

I scared myself the past few days for nothing. hahaha...

Next up is E-coomerce quiz. Not to forget history magazine assignment. Back to work now.

10.43am
it's so hot today.

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Yup. It is Justin Bieber hair. Found out that nuffnang is putting bieber ads on my blog so I play along lah. I am not a fan of this person nor I have anything against him. Neutral standing here.xD

Been busy, VERY busy with work, homework and assignments. Just did my impormto speech today, good/bad? I not sure. Personally I feel I did badly, but people say I did okay. One thing about this class, the people are very supportive, they will say "you did great"/"good job" to each other. In a way it is moral support I guess? Miss Lim said I have good tone though, the best for the day. It was after everyone left, at least she told me which made me happy a little but it wasn't enough to compensate the sadness of doing badly.

History editing is still on the way. I am not that creative but I am trying my best. Tomorrow will be working so there goes my time again. Thursday is e-commerce test and history due. I just hope I will be able to make it. Talking about group assignment, I find it very tiring especially when I am the one compiling and editing, but then I don't trust it to be in the hand of others. I worry it won't turn out good enough. I have trust issue.hahaha...

Haiz...my neck hurts like shit from hours in front the laptop today. Thus the early sleep tonight. Good night.

11.35pm

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The boyfriend had a rough day yesterday. He woke up late for college. So did I, I overslept and although finished reading the history book, I had no time to memorize the important points.

I miss hugs and teddy that are cuddly like the one hsiang got for me. But it's in aussie. When days get tough, hugs really do help a lot and not to mentioned support from loved ones. Too bad now we can only depend on digital hugs.LOL.

Working today. Till 10.30pm. NOOOO!!! Shall wait for manager to come back then ask if I could go back early. I need to do so much more homework. Plus can anyone teach me how to use photoshop to combine two image?

4.47pm
Resting at the VIP table in Sakae, cause we the workers are VERY IMPORTANT PEOPLE. XD

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Last day of the month and I look like this.
I want to stay in bed!!!
Wuwuwuwu....

7.40am
Stuck in jam thus a quick nap

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It used to be me sitting at a corner watching time goes by.

Then as I grew, I was walking hand in hand with time.

Now I am chasing after time, and yet it seems farther away.

Time cannot be stop. There is no pause button. Time cannot be rewind. There is no playback button.

One thing for sure. Once I end college, I will live a more meaningful life than does not include only business and making a fortune.

1.30am
Good night

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I screwed up my history paper today. Just hope that I didn't screw it up too badly. History is my favorite subject this semester, I really wanted to get an A+ for it. Haiz...I am feeling so useless again.

Went for movie with sister at pyramid afterwards. We were like two noobs choosing what movie to watch. Oh forgot to mention that the tickets were free from nuffnang. So we decided on The Eagle. No idea what the movie was about. But it turned out okay. We gave it an A. haha... Basically is a roman and a britain that were enemies that became friends and were on a quest to retrieve the lost eagle which is just a piece of metal that the roman empire lost long time ago. So simple. Lol.

Hang out at the pet shop for awhile. I am always happy when I am in a pet shop. *big smiles* Lots of toys and food that I want to buy for my pets. Oh and I bought an ornament for Sunny. Like a fake rock with plastic plants on it.

I like going out like that. So happy. Wish life could be more simple.

9.30pm
time to do speech outline. the improved version.

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I love clouds.
I want to watch the clouds go by on a meadow with you.

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Something good happened that gave me that little push for college life today.

Yup! Good marks for my e-commerce individual assignment. I am so glad that the hard work paid off.

Tomorrow is history mid-term. I have one more chapter to read plus memorization of important points. Hope I can score for the paper. Really need to pull my grades up this semester.

Okay. Back to reading. Gambateh!=)

9.50pm

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It's monday. It's funny how happy I was yesterday and how not motivated I am today. I am worse than a zombie. At least zombie still motivated to eat other people's brain.

College today added another few items on the to-do-list. It's NEVER ENDING!!! At least one down today, although speech analysis was a walk through hell. Next up is History on wednesday. I am making progress. Hearing others finished reading the chapters over the weekend made me envy them so much. Sigh...got to study still no matter what right?

Wore new pair of shoes today. Not exactly new, bought it last year when I visited singapore alone. But cousin took GOOD care of me. Just change the shoelaces and they look stunning. So COLORFUL. Not like my brain, where creativity died. Haiz...

Been sighing so much today. Maybe it's just today. Gambateh studying history. Good luck to me.
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I don't know which is better?
Weekdays with college and work
Or
Weekends 10am to 10pm work

On the list for next week are speech analysis, history group assignment, history mid term and persuasive speech. Hell lot of things to do. I can see myself half dead next week.xD

But there's good news! Miss extended the date for history assignment. That is one very big burden off my shoulder. Means tonight I don't need to stay up to do my part. I can go to bed early and be energetic for work tomorrow. Yay! It's such a big relieve for me.
Sister bought a handmade necklace for me from new zealand. It's a big red heart with patterns on it. I love it. One day I shall wear it.=)

Good night
11.55pm

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Hong Kong Dim Sum for bruch with parents and Chieh Hoon in Puchong two saturdays ago.

 

sister was away for 2 weeks enjoying time in NZ.i had to babysit the cat and dog.parent babysited me.xD

 

spent some late night doing assignments.honey starts kept me company the whole night.

 

  made macarons for the first time in my life.they turned out to be tiny bite size biscuits.

 

but i got them in the right size in the third try =)

 

enjoyed the flea market on the weekend with parents

i love old stuff

i want a old phone and a record player for my future home

 

had dinner at ikea and an heart pumping ride home

 

then it’s college again 

 

where public speaking is a tough as usual.topic got rejected.persuasive speech is a lot of work

 

i wish i could write grandfather story but i have no time

life is too busy lately

it will get busier the coming weeks

gambateh