i tried so hard but i just couldn't fall asleep
4am in the morning and i was just lying still on my bed
it’s so silent i could hear so many things so clearly
the distance car sounds from the highway
the cat that is scratching something outside my window
the crickets that filled the air with their beautiful night songs
and my heartbeat that goes "dup dup..dup dup.."
i can feel the heartbeat as i tuned into it
i love to do that…makes me feel i’m real and alive
went to ampang to see mommy and daddy and chieh hoon
only 4 hours of sleep and the long journey
i’m really tired but it was all worth it
daddy was down with a cold but we still went out
just to have dinner though to celebrate my birthday
mommy and daddy was in penang on friday
they feel bad they weren't there for me
it’s ok mommy daddy,i understand…
thanks for the dinner chieh hoon and mommy
suzi’s corner was a weird place to eat with lots of ang mo
but fun wathching ang mo wine and dine in mamak
today is not really my day
i don’t really like taking the lrt
especially the putra line
it reminds me of that bastard
it reminds me of the good times we had
it reminds me of the promises he gave
it reminds me of how it all ended
sitting on the train listening to songs
as the feeling gradually build up inside of me
all the anger,hatred and sadness
and before i know it my best friends came visit me again
i hate him badly now that i think of ways that i can revenge him
if i see him i would throw hot milo on him and kick his balls
if i have a gun i will shot him at his non-vital parts and let him die slowly
if i could i would let him know how it feels to loss somebody he really love
the dark side is taking over me since he tried to make contact
i don’t like being like this…this is not me…
bought famous amos chocolate cookies at kl sentral
1 for me 1 for pok as promise
just to make me feel better
but my cough is too severe now that i can’t touch the cookies
not my day..today is not my day…
12.41am
should go sleep
tomorrow 8am class
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