Ai's Diary

it's my life...it's now or never...i ain't gonna live forever...i just wanna live while i'm alive...

i feel lost…lost like i don’t belong in this world

i feel like i am in a trans or maybe from another space and time

just being here temporarily to see and experience what that is not real

 

went to college today…don’t feel like going to class

skipped almost an hour of anthro class sitting alone having breakfast

went to class…felt like i was in another medium

people are talking around me but i can’t hear them

lecturers were teaching but i couldn’t remember a thing

didn't join friends for lunch…wanted to be alone…

i want some peace…but no matter where i go i feel something is not right

skipped another macroeconomic class…

the second class i skipped today

 

i really feel lost…totally lost…

the only time that i was happy was when i played in the park

being a little girl playing the seesaw laughing at nothing

but then for a moment i fell into the hole again

looking at everything around me and can only see the sadness

 

i am loss

i am just lying to myself all this while

i still can’t find my way back up

i don’t want to fuck up my life just like that

i tried to make a change but why i’m still like this?

 

10.40pm

i dun wanna be lost

pull me up please

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勇敢去爱
勇敢去闯
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活着要爱得无悔
我不想后悔也没有后悔
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