Ai's Diary

you are like the venom of a snake

sipping into my heart and soul so quietly so quickly

it is so poisoness that i don’t stand a chance of surviving

i’m melting away…like ice…

 

i thought of you before i sleep last night

i thought of you when i woke up several times in the night

i thought of you the very first instance i woke up this morning

haven seen you for a day and i have missed you so much

i’m constantly waiting for you to text me

i’m secretly smiling and blushing when i’m talking to you 

what have you done to me? what did you do?

did you use black magic or what?

i can’t believe this is happening

crap crap crap…damn it…

 

i’m not sure about all of these

maybe you are just fooling around

maybe i was just there for you to play with during your boring holiday

maybe after you get bored or you found someone new you’ll just dump me aside

like what he did…like what guys usually do

 

if there’s a thing that i have learn from my breakup

it is that i should not believe a guy’s words and promises that easily

but you are a capricorn and capricorn people are the most serious in relationship

should i make decision based on experience and judgment

or just believe in what i believe in?

 

a close friend of mine once said to me

that i was too naive and i trust people too easily

that is why i get cheated and hurt easily

is this characteristic of me an advantage or disadvantage?

will you cheat me?

 

told a friend that i sucks in my love life

keep falling in love with the people that i least expected i will fall in love with

seriously,imagine it…people were shocked to half dead when i was with my ex

and now i fall for you…i wonder what people will think

but i don’t care…like i always do…

i don’t care what people gonna say not think

as long as i don’t hurt others in the process then it’s fine

 

honestly,

no matter how it will end i think i’ll still take the risk

even if it means it won’t end well

i’m just grateful that i can feel and love again

it’s feels so good to smile and blush

i’ll choose to trust you

i just want to savor the moment

even if it’s only for a few days

:)

 

the rooftop overlooking the magnificent kl view as we sat there talking for who knows how long and about what

it’s our little secret place…

i’m happy…

:)

 

p/s:

wanted to congratulate a very special friend of mine

he is the person that has been there for me during my hard time

he found a girl and is with her now!!!

yay!!!

hope that you’ve found your true happiness gary

and all the best to both of you

(saw you msn picha,she’s cute)

hehe…treat her well ok?

(i know you’ll be reading my blog…:P)