Ai's Diary

There is so much to blog about but there is so little time to do so. I respect people who has the discipline to write their diary every single night or update their blog every so often. Lately life has been busy with lots of good times with good food and companies, though there are a few down times. But overall life has been kind to me this year and I am truly grateful for that. Hsiang will be leaving for Australia in another 6 days, that is less than a week. Time really flies and i hope it flies faster after he is in Australia, so we can meet each other again. And may our relationship stay strong and overcome whatever that may come in its way.

 

This semester has been an interesting one. Though I am always passionate about projects and studies in the beginning of the semester, the fire tend to go off as the time passes and I am worried of that. I am bursting of ideas for the International Marketing project on the first discussion and kind off convinced others to go with that concept, but now I am hesitating. I just hope that thing will turn out great as I imagine it in my head. Another challenge that awaits me was Miss Lim’s Speech Communication class. I am always scared of Miss Lim. I even termed the phrase “miss lim phobia” for it. To make things worse the whole semester will involve a whole lot of standing at the front and speaking. However, my self introduction turned out to be quite interesting. It goes roughly something like this.

 

“Hi, my name is Ai. I am not going to introduced myself today, instead I will talk about my 2 greatest fear to be in this class. Firstly, I am afraid to stand in front of a crowd to give a speech. I am a very low profile person that I can be easily be unnoticed in a class, even Miss Lim forgot my name and thought that I was Angie.That is the reason why I did not took part in any story telling or debating competition from primary to secondary school. Secondly, I am afraid of Miss Lim because she is like a real life Patrick Jane from the television series The Mentalist. She is very alert and can read people by observing the way they speak, walk,dress, place their things and facial expression. It is as if she could tell if you are lying or scared by looking into your eyes and observe the dilation of the pupils.”

 

My hands were shaking and i could hear my heartbeat so clearly when I was talking at the front. Miss Lim laughed at the point I described her to be like Patrick Jane. But after that she gave a profile review in front of the whole class. She said that I was brave, and although I like to be a low profile person, no matter I like it or not, I will be somebody important in the future. Then she added that if people know the way I work they will understand. One thing I do not understand is that I only took one subject under her which was Anthropology, how could she tell the way I work? After class I went up to her and ask for advice on how to give a better speech, because that was what she told to others who spoke at the front. But she told me the same thing> Though she added and said that I am not a person that will not go look for fights, but if a fight comes looking for me, I will never give up, that is a quality that will make me successful. Is that really so? I told her that I am not interested in all those but again she said no matter i like it or not, I will be someone important.

 

I believe that we can choose the path in life that we want to take. I am not interested in fame, power nor fortune. I dreamed of a simple life. A comfortable life without financial worries and good health together with the people I love. There is a possibility that I can be someone so powerful and famous and rich, but for the sake of a harmonious life, I am willing to give all that up. Happiness, health and family are more important than all those.

 

i choose family, happiness, health and wealth.