Ai's Diary

thank you so much

you’ve put a great ending to my perfectly great day

 

is those time again when the only escape i have is the showers

standing under the water and scream my heart out

the weird thing is there’s no sound is coming out

but i can feel my heart is screaming so loud that it’s going to burst

yet it provides some degree of relieve that i keep doing that over and over again

 

you think you know me you think you know the reason but you are wrong

and when i choose to keep silent because i do not want to say anything bad

you did.

i’ve decided to reduce the amount of times i said the rights and wrongs for you

i’ve reduced telling what consequences may have because of your action

i’ve tried.

and i’m tired thinking for you and others

 

i hate you i hate you i hate you

i do not want to see you anymore

i do not want to talk to you ever again

these are the things that my heart is screaming

but i know i’ll regret it later so i held it in

it’s hard

 

now i’m wishing very hard.very hard.i wish it will come true.

 

10.15pm

i swear this is the ever last time i am going to love somebody

i’ve had enough.i swear.