Ai's Diary

losing you is one thing that i didn’t wanted it to happen

but it was all beyond my control

your heart was beyond my control

your life was beyond my control

you left

just like that

you begin your new life

leaving me standing alone

alone in the darkness and the rain

it’s a fact that i need to accept

 

but from all these heartaches,pains and tears

i gained something even more precious

i gained friendship,true friendship

i used to shut everyone else out of my life except you and my family

it may seems to you that my friends were more important to me

but the fact is you didn’t know how much i gave up to be with you

i practically have no life with friends except you

you may think it’s you only that gave up so much

well,you are wrong cause i just didn’t mentioned all the sacrifice i made

 

now i’m closer to many more people

became closer to ezen,angie,alcia,liya and the geng

became even more closer to honey

got back in contact with dage,gary,shanice,pei wen,lily

really glad to have all these people in my life

 

now i’m having more fun with my life

i can go out with whoever i want whenever i want

i don’t need keep sms-ing you my whereabouts

i can go out till late night without having to quarrel with you

i can sit anyone’s car without quarreling with you

i get to go places,do things which i’ll never get to do when i was with you

 

i admit that i still love you

i admit that i still miss you

i admit that i would still rather spend my time doing nothing with you

but i must accept that what i dream off and what i want will never happen

the life that i once have with you and the life i wanted to have with you is all gone

it still hurts me a lot till this very moment that you gave up

i won’t rush to get over this pain this suffering

i have questions,so many of them but i’m stopping from asking them too much

all those questions have no answers no matter who i ask no matter how many times i ask

the only thing i can do is just let it be

time will wash away the pain

time will give me all the answers

 

Let it Be - Lennon/McCartney

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be,Let it be.Let it be,let it be 
       
There will be an answer, let it be.

Let it be, let it be,let it be,let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music

Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.