Friday
Friday is the day my heart broke cause of him all over again
Found out that he went to Genting with his college mates and his new her
It broke my heart to know that cause through the almost 2 years i was with him
I always suggested we go Genting to play (as usual there will always be a but…lol)
But…he always gave reasons
Say that our holiday is not the same la
His family has financial issues so he don’t want to put anymore burden on them
So fine lor…i accept lor…i say we collect money then go lor…(which i don’t know he did or not buy i know i did)
But then not 2 month in his new relationship
There he goes…with his bunch of college friends and his new girl to Genting
I was sooo mad that i loss control again
That was my Friday…
Saturday
Saturday was my emo day
I’ll be in emo state for a few days when something like this happens…
I cried almost the whole day
Yes…the whole day…
Locked myself in the room
Skip lunch
Skip my afternoon nap
And poured all my feelings to a friend over the msn
I said a lot of junk…i think
But who cares,felt better afterwards
Slept early that day
No mooncake no tanglung no candles for me on saturday
That was my mid-autumn festival,my saturday
Sunday
Woke up on sunday morning feeling better
(slept at 10pm the night before & woke up almost 11am,i really a pig…lol…)
But then everything changed after i went to carrefour with my sister,brother in-law and his family
I used to go shopping like that with him
Just holding hands seeing things touching things and dreaming of our future home and life
My favorite will always be the pet corner
We can spend a whole hour there looking at the hamsters
It was so simple and sweet…
Time like that is the one i feel most happy…
No need to spend a lot
Just holding each other hand tightly and talk about the nice things we want in the future…
That simple only…
Went back with a pain heart
Then started telling stories about the past to my friend again…
Telling those stories somehow makes me feel better
But i know i have to get over this
And i will
Just i’ll take my time
Cause i realized something which i will share later when i have the mood to write it…
Monday
Was still a little emo today
But i accomplish something today
Was thinking and emoing alone in my thoughts in finance class today
Then i saw the stickers on my pens
The stickers wrote “忆杰❤月爱"
And don’t know where the courage came from
I just started peeling them off one by one
It hurts a lot but i still went on with it
Why? I don’t know…
Maybe deep down inside me i know that i have to get over this
Almost cried after that…haha…stupid me…useless me…
p/s:
the past few days has been a waste
did nothing and i have an assignment due tomorrow
going to work on it tonight
just hope that i can finish it in time
i think i’m getting better…
i hope so…
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